question for the day/year

i am wondering: if i want to do cold, cruel, horribly mean things to certain individuals and i resist the urge to do those things, am i a bitch, or is there just potential for me to behave like one?

on a sort-of unrelated topic, there have been some character issues resolved with reference to my novel.

and it looks like a commune of "us" may become soy farmers, once somebody aquires enough wealth to purchase a farm. apparantly i'm to be the farming advisor. this is kind of a scary thought because my house cactuses died. i hope we have some backup resources, like maybe i'll be a rock star, or the book will sell, or something.

or something.

any ideas for new years' resolutions? the only ones i can think of are:
get the cat fixed,
finish the precious moments latchhook that's been half-done in the closet for a year and some,
win the lottery/cash in on some large sum of money some other way,
and actually start writing the novel, instead of just thinking about it.